hey. wat to say today ne. emm... ok. then i shld say how i feel ytd and today morning ba.

ytd. i feel terrible. donno why. ytd night more serious. if u all gt see my nick u will know. feeling really terrible. want to cry out loud but cant. lots of problem. but jus cant say it out cos i donno gt wat kind of problems. mayb it is an imaginary stress that i give myself ba. but why do i have all these feeling leh?! haiz~ everything jus don goes well for me. its part of my life i know. but i jus donno how to handle these problem. no one to talk to. even if there is some one there i can talk to. to say everything out. think the person oso don understand how i feel. i have to overcome it myself. i need some one to guide me. im going into depression. i donno how im feeling now. i sometime happy, sometime sad. i don like this peijun. i wan back the old peijun who can laugh out loud even if there is problem waiting for her. i wan to be back like last time where i have no problem, no stress, no tireness. but can i? i know i can but how to start? when to start? i jus wanna brainwash myself.