i am.

seriously.

damn sad.

now.

another stroke to the 正. i believe i will have many 正 after i come back from hong kong, counting the number of times i cried.

i really feel so upset about leaving now, no appetite, no mood to go out. i just wanna spend my last few days at home, thinking, rehearsing being alone.

i really feel very sad now.

mommy handwritten a mini cute 'bible' for me, telling me things to remember when i'm over there alone. she pasted stickers like 'you'll always be my baby', 'i love you' on it.

chankai bought presents for me to bring over, so i can open presents during special days. he pasted dates on them, so i know which is the one i can open. he finally wrapped his presents for me up.